Thank you Ashri for your DSLR and the photos.

“Do you know what it’s like to give your whole self to a person, and your whole heart to boot, until you’ve got nothing left to give - and then realize that it still isn’t what they need?” I know.

The bbq session with my fellow ex-dunearnites were g8 maximum!! A meetup with those whom I rarely see too. The food was good too, thanks to those who bbq-ed for me. As usual, many photos were taken!!! Old habits die hard and I'm still a camwhore :p Oh and I love Dayna's supa red hair. HAHAHA. After the bbq, we felt that our stomachs were still a lil empty so we went to mac. For that night, we became like last year again. Jokes, vulgarities, fire, and all sorts of nonsense came back again - like a 4 Jader only! :)

Today was boring. I was only awake for 2 hours in the morning and afternoon and now. There isn't any interesting matches this evening so I'll give world cup a miss today. K it was hell boring at home today but luckily I had peace. Tomorrow, I'm gonna go find shilei. Hopefully she's at home because I don't want to stay in my own homeeeee.

Wtf was I doing last time?

BBQ soon and seeing 32 people! I miss my dunearnites and I miss yami yogurt peach take home pack!! And taking alot of spoons from them. I think their spoons are nice and greeeeeen :D

It's not nice to see someone leave. Especially if they are leaving this place, this goddamn earth for good. And even if you don't really know that person. So its true, that you may be a really happy person on the outside. But on the inside, you are crumbling and falling. I feel... for all of them. I've been through it. Suddenly that past came back to my mind. When the gates open, it goes in and never comes out in a piece again. After that one moment, everything will become something like it never existed.

Fuck this sad thing. I feel like crying.

What's been happening to me this week?

Common tests - Electrical technology, engineering math 1 and engineering mechanics. Ok I really want to update this space a little but my mind's not working well these few weeks. Hmm which will also result in low marks for CT. That's for the academic part. I've been travelling alot to Lot 1 and yewtee for lunch with my west-siders friends this week.

Holidays are here. My very first break after poly started in April. It's 2 weeks long but I've to bear in mind that I've got that very lame cultural intelligence project to complete. Hopefully everything can be done by the first week of my holidays. Be happy about it people, don't be like me. My life is... pretty fucked up now. It's KARMA I guess. Since npsu ended, hersheys have been talking about what kind of karma they had. Like dropping of laptops if I remembered correctly. But I think I got the worse karma, and getting back at me all at one shot. I don't even have the mood to watch the world cup.

Okay goodbye there's church tomorrow.

I'm living a nightmare. The common tests are over and the holidays are here. Be happy while you can.

I want you to know: with everything I won't let this go, these words are my heart and soul. I'll hold on to this moment you know, cause I'd bleed my heart out to show and I won't let go.

I miss 4 Jade alot, especially when I see all my ex-classmates blogging about our past in the class together!! I experienced the worst vandalism in class, the biggest and fattest lizard I've ever seen, and received one of the most bullshit craps in my life! I miss charging my phone at those cute plugs and Melody will be like "Wah Celeste, save home electricity uh!" I miss looking at things getting destroyed! Ok I sound very pathetic but those were the good old memories!

Felt quite inspired to study hard after hearing that all of them are getting pretty good results! It really feels good to be talking to the 4 Jade people again. Okay but we're all quite busy and hectic with our own studies. Some classmates like Nigel even gone to Canada to study! We shall all do Dunearn proud~

Photo credits to Melody's blog :)

I stand on the side of the street.
Watching cars go by,
I suppress the urge to walk infront of one.

You know you’re in love when all it takes is one song to make you think of him. And you can’t hear anything except the music and your heart beating. All of a sudden you find it hard to breathe, butterflies are in your stomach, and tears are running down your cheeks. But you don’t know why.

If these things are really caused by you people, I'll never forgive you all.

Felt great to be back in Dunearn yesterday with my friends, walking on the same parade square and looking at the same old dunearnites. I miss wearing my school uniform and I miss all my teachers! Oh and not forgetting the slowest lift in NP, which I enjoy wasting my time in. It's a 2-3 minutes ride up for 1 storey only. LOL well over at my house, 2-3 minutes = a ride up 12 storeys. HAHAHAHA OK CRAP.

How's life today? Sucks. Today I just kissed goodbye to my 35% of practical test. I took the paper with a blank mind..... Don't really know where all my knowledge went to just now. I'm really worried about the eltech paper on Monday. Thankfully I've only got 3 subjects.

What I should do: start studying, stop procrastinating and continue hoping for a good day. And you're the greatest greatest thing to me :)

Everyday I feel like shit. I don't understand why you have to always be gone, I get along but the trips always feel so long. I find myself trying to stay by the phone, cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone. Where'd you go? I miss you so. Seems like it's been forever, that you've been gone.

Lifeless.