vacancy

2011-04-27T13:09:00.002-03:00

Nobody's gna believe this. Not even myself hahahaha fuck :( Anw won't be rly blogging that much around here anymore. Everything's at my tumblr heeehee

2011-04-23T11:11:00.001-03:00

When will you ever realise that I'm not okay, I'm not okay, I'm not o-fucking-kay. I guess its okay, you don't have to.

2011-04-20T11:27:00.002-03:00

Bloodsucking succubus, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be
Like trying to start over
I got a hole in my heart, I'm some kind of emotional rollercoaster
Something I won't go on till you toy with my emotion, so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold you,
I wasn't joking when I told you, you take my breathe away
You're a supernova

Tears stream down both of my cheeks
Then I let you just go and just give
And before I put that gun to my temple
I told you this:
And I would've done anything for you
To show you how much I adored you
But it's over now
It's too late to save our love
Just promise me you'll think of me every time you look up in the sky and see a star

When love fails, Eminem speaks. My blog's becoming a lyrical journal haha gosh

2011-04-18T11:43:00.000-03:00

what the fuckery man

2011-04-17T13:26:00.003-03:00

School starts tomorrow and i'm really having mixed feelings about it. New classmates, new modules, new stress level and the current problems I have in my head...... And just in case I've to be in an emo state where I've got no one to talk to, I brought my storybook along in my bagpack!

Met up w Waicheng+Haozhe in the day and we had a good amount of ikea food (y) To sum it all up, our little meet-up was gr8. All the inside jokes and what not. I learnt a new german word too HAHAHAHA.

Happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad happy sad. That's what you make me feel everyday

2011-04-16T14:34:00.002-03:00

TRUE THAT

1. Money can’t buy happiness but somehow, it’s more comfortable to cry in a BMW than on a bicycle…

2. Forgive your enemy, but remember the motherfucker’s name.

3. Help a man when he is troubled and he will remember you when he is in trouble again.

4. Many people are alive only because it’s illegal to shoot them.

5. Alcohol does not solve any problem, but then neither does milk.

From Xianda's tumblr.

2011-04-14T15:06:00.002-03:00

I feel your heart cry for love,
But you won't let me make it right.
You were hurt, but I decided,
That you were worth the fight.
Every night, you lock up,
You won't let me come inside.
But the look in your eyes,
As I can turn the tide.

I feel your heart cry for love,
Then you act like there's no room.
Room for me, or anyone,
"Don't disturb" is all I see.

Heart Vacancy // The Wanted

Every fucking time I've got the same fucking problem, this song plays in my head.....

2011-04-13T13:35:00.004-03:00

Been days since I've did a proper update here. ITS THE LAST WEEK OF HOLIDAYS BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS AGAIN. Grrr my table's still at its worst state. So today I headed for tpy (like damn friggin early in the morning) > town > cityhall w Jiaqi+Jenting+Vince.

I think I'm prolly gna touch those mj tiles over Aloy's place since he's back from china. WHOOOOOP I miss ash ash too. Let's do crazy things before we hit year2 hehehehehe.

2011-04-09T15:48:00.001-03:00

It's raining, What do I do, I really miss you
I don't dare to call you, I can't find a reason to
How come the sound of insomnia, has become so familiar
The silent background replaces you
Accompanying me as I wait for the rain to stop
The person who is loved, need not apologise

2011-04-06T12:23:00.004-03:00

HAOZHE'S EIGHTEEN BIRTHDAY

happy haozhe hehehehe

best duck meat pizza ever yum yum

spicy buffalo wingzzz *_*

Timbre was da bomb but the bill was a bigger bomb. Anw hope haozhe enjoyed his 18th birthday celebration!!! School's reopening soon YAY. Here comes my allowance $_$ Need to study my mind off hmmm.

Why don't I ever learn my lesson after burning my fingers so many fucking times?

2011-04-05T16:18:00.001-03:00

Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
I'm beginning to see the light
Blow the candles out
Looks like a solo tonight
But I think I'll be alright

2011-04-03T14:07:00.000-03:00

maybe i'll end all my non-existent thoughts silently tonight

2011-04-01T13:39:00.002-03:00

v^^v

I've been posing w my twist twist in most of the pixx. Step cute much but owell.. once in awhile~ Can't wait for the april outing w my fav t1b4 people again! Lots of luvin for all of them hehehe

2011-03-30T11:59:00.004-03:00

Bel8ted universal studio photographs

my pool quite chio right *wink wink*

water to drink+fruits to eat after a swim

chilli's ribs are a must try 10 stars (y)

Not rly my type because they are damn freaking sour

damn shag after bsg+mummy ride *_*

Aweeeeesome time w the three of them. Its like a lil getaway from the hustle and bustle of singapore life. Although we only went to sentosa, it was still smth!!!!!!! Most imptly, I was away from my home from 3 whole days and that is ALOT to me hehehe. More to come ok my lovely people ^^

2011-03-24T09:32:00.001-03:00

So yesterday we surprised our dear Novell w 2 surprises. Hope she liked her cake+our surprise~ Before that we went to kallang to iceskate. Hmm I think nobody shld ever go to MBS' "skating ring" because you're not skating on ice, you're skating on wax zzz.

IM GETTING MY RESULTS BACK TMRW OMG. I'm so fucking close to getting dismissed from school man. So sad :(

2011-03-17T09:07:00.001-03:00

photo taken w dinah on thurs when we finally met up! heehee so we went on a job hunt but failed to find a job. Thus we went to explore rail mall at night. Love that place mannnn.

2011-03-13T07:45:00.002-03:00

It's Sunday and I've been home all afternoon...

Going to church is not counted as going out hor, I repeat NOT COUNTED. But for the sake of my 3 days getaway on the 21st, this shall continue and I SHALL PERSEVERE. Anw I have my books+shows to keep me company today. But tbh, I was sleeping the whole day this afternoon hahahahhaa

Hmm I've been wanting to play the piano but I don't like to play it when my parents r around. Imma go figure what I shall do l8r ciao x

2011-03-12T13:33:00.001-04:00

Quite disheartening to know about the disaster that stuck Japan. I think my hello kitty creator died because of it too....... Think about all the gadgets that come from japan. Even my piano's made in japan. They are like one of the best countries in the world in terms of everything and poof everything's gone like that. Ok la you get my drift somehow right???

BUT FOR FUCK'S SAKE, people like YOU need to stop retweeting multiple tweets about the same fucking thing cos I TOTALLY GET IT K. I. Will. Pray. For. Japan. Zzzz you're getting grosser by the day. What the fuckery sia srsly

2011-03-12T10:37:00.001-04:00

As disgusting as it looks, this dessert is DOPE.

Classy dindin w the cousins since its grandfather's birthday mmm.

2011-03-11T13:38:00.001-04:00

Girl in you I find a friend, You make me feel alive again
And I feel like the brightest star, Cos you make me shine again

2011-03-09T12:55:00.003-04:00

Seeing all the food that Brice prepared today makes me hungry all over again!!! Anw I had a gr8 day w Venetia+Brice+Vincent+Shuyi.

2011-03-07T14:37:00.002-04:00

Quite packed for the next few days. That's kinda good isn't it? Keeping my mind off certain things... Hmmm I wonder how are you.

2011-03-03T12:37:00.003-04:00

wheeeeee i'm less than 12hrs to my long-awaited freedom. I've been studying liker dog man... Puhlease don't rain tmrw cos I wna wear my birks once I've collected them hehehe!

So here's some of the stuffs that's waiting for me to be done:

1. Find a job w Dinah once she comes back from bkk. cashless girl here~ $_$

2. USS w Venetia+Vincent+Brice 21 march zomg

3. GET MY TOMS. Wna get the red one ^^ Anw my vans also spoiling lor

4. Get my ass down to Novena to find dajie (i've been saying this for months)

2011-03-02T14:41:00.002-04:00

what's up?

1. I'm left w one paper tho nearly every ece kid finished their exam alr. Aiya cos I retake modules and I'm quite dumb in that sense.

2. Collecting my birks tgt w Ivan on friday hmm finally???

3. I'm quite tired right now qpoi23ieorigjo3gfdfq

4. My heart's collapsing once again. It's rly not my year, I can alr feel it.... :(

2011-03-01T14:29:00.001-04:00

Some pixx from the iphone. ^^

2011-02-22T14:43:00.001-04:00

i'd go back to december all the time (if i ever could..)

2011-02-20T13:47:00.003-04:00

Just one of the many unproductive mugging days...... So my exams haven't started, but I've already planned on the stuffs to do right after it ends. AIYA I JUST DON'T LIKE THIS PERIOD OF TIME. (pouts pouts pouts)

I just wished that things could be like the time when I was having my common tests.. When special words from someone like you could give me a lil motivation. Why is the timing always wrong????? Why is it always too late.....? Why don't you care anymore? Just when I'm typing this, heart vacancy coincidentally plays on my itunes. Fuck this shit once again.

In your heart in your heart in your heart in your heart

2011-02-13T15:43:00.002-04:00

happy vday everybody, some hearts for you? ♥ ♥ ♥

okay so what's gna happen tmrw is that i'm gna go to school to study w cheryl and waicheng. Ya ikr like no school+its vday but i'm still going to np. What to do, the exams are coming up real soon..... And yknow what i've finally completed the feb'09 eg2 paper after xxxxx days. I'm bringing both my eg2+del bks to study tmrw and hopefully I'll cr8 some miracles w them ^^

2011-02-11T14:28:00.001-04:00

Mistreated, Misplaced, Misunderstood
Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
That's alright
Welcome to my silly life

They say lightning do strike the same place twice but I can't believe I'm so suay sia.....

2011-02-07T08:12:00.005-04:00

Ok hai i'm back here once again after such a long time ikr.......... I'm finally almost fully recovered from the long-term illness!!!!!! Cny's been ok-ok. Wish we could have 15days of holidays tho. Ah fuck gna have to study hard for the finals. Say hi to intensive hxc mugging soon yeah.

You know what it means when the finals are coming? It means that I'm gna bid gdbye to all my classmates in this sem :'( I came into the second half of year1 w/o knowing almost nobody in most of the modules. But I went thru it and get to know like sooooooooooo many more cool people. Second half of year1 is as awesome than first half of year1 lor! Why do I always get closer w people only when the time is abt up?

I'm gna go emo in youaremysupernova.

2011-01-23T10:35:00.000-04:00

too sick to blog bluek. and like.. who's still reading it?

2011-01-18T11:54:00.001-04:00

once bitten, twice shy.

how abt.. twice bitten?

2011-01-11T13:10:00.004-04:00

f u c k e d x ∞

Just a dream on replaaaay idk why. It should really stop raining for fuck's sake. I mean c'mon it's already january, shouldn't we be seeing some sunshine?? I could rly use some sunlight tmrw pretty please. Dampens the mood too yeah yeah~

Anyw, life's quite mundane & abt the same today. I guess I'm just gna accept whatever that's given to me. The usual eltech+del+eg2=tuesday. My on/off happiness is rly getting nowhere but owell.. After this, I'm gna tie up the loose ends for my del assignment and whoooop it's all ready to go! Good cough cough cough night people :-)

2011-01-10T07:52:00.001-04:00

i swear its the best moment ever x

2011-01-09T10:33:00.003-04:00

Lack of updates in this lil space of mine, sorry I kinda lost the blogging vibe. Gave the bffs outing a miss today cos I was still quite sick eeeeek. Anyw, TMRW IS MONDAY AGAIN. Fucked up or what huh. I've got so many things undone for the coming week. Can't wait for the eventful weekend to come man!

(i)Eecad exercise C & the formal report shit
(ii)Del holiday assignment
(iii)Study for eltech retest
(iv)Eg2 mol for integration

2011-01-02T13:40:00.001-04:00

Thought I couldn’t want you, more than I did before
But everyday I love you a little bit more
Find myself asking what are you waiting for
Cos everyday I love you a little bit more

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2010-12-31T14:56:00.002-04:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011 EVERYBAAAAARDY LET TMRW BE A GOOD DAY BECAUSE ITS 1/1/11!!!!!

Thank God for letting 2010 end well just like 2009. Spent it well w the bffs (yet again hehe) Everything went smoothly as planned yippeeeee. We went over t Pinhui's on the last 30mins of 2010 & managed t catch a great display of fireworks all around singapore! Cool right, I know ;) Well for tmrw, I'm gna be a good girl. I shall stay home and watch my cartoon network on tv HAHAHAHAHA. I hope things remain the same for now please x

2010-12-30T12:59:00.002-04:00

NYR???

Everybody got their new year resolutions so I'm gna think of mine right now!!! Good academic results, better relationship w the fam, bffs t stay as they are? These are like the usuals aren't they? And of course t learn from my mistakes. All the foolish mistakes I've made this year. Thx t those who made me learn & grow stronger in the harsh wayyyyy.

Ahhhh. Life's been g8 on the start of the last day of 2010. Got my bb plan liker finally & of course.. other happier stuffs hehehehehe. Celebrating my nye tmrw w the bffs, pizza+spag+mahjong+countdown+alcohol+laughter!!!!!!

CELESTE GIVE Y'ALL HUGS OK?!?!?!?! ♡

2010-12-28T12:02:00.003-04:00

Razi asked, "Have you ever felt like running away from home and never going back to that place again?" In my heart I said, "Yeah, every single day."

2010-12-27T13:38:00.003-04:00

☺♡☺♡

Me wna visit this girl at her icecream shop soon! Miss helping her tie fish braids. :(

2010-12-27T11:34:00.002-04:00

Losing you is like living in a world w no air/ Can't live can't breathe w no air

i've been thinkin' bout you again today.. Ok this sucks. Anyw i'm meeting my topshop happypills, Dinah & Joyce tmrw!!!!!!!! Oh oh oh I'm in the midst of brainwashing the dad t get me my bb data plan. It's been 10 fucking long months, I hope he agrees t it.

2010-12-25T08:09:00.003-04:00

"The only way to win is to survive"

I love Cora because I think she's damn cool & cute!!!!!!!! *screams*

Lai lai let's camwhore abit while waiting for 7:15pm hehee.

We had the second front row seats eeeee.. Ok but it wasn't that bad.

Somebody's display pic ya?? Hahaha

HIIIIIIIIIIIII.

Look at this Venetia~~~

Don't cha think this is rly cool too?

So I met up w the Yuinpingzxzx after 1000 years. Went t town t shop around & caught Tron. It was G8 G8 G8 friggin' awesome like what Waicheng told me the prev time. Miss chee we must meet again ok ;) Hehehee we can lepak at the secret place that we found!

2010-12-23T12:13:00.001-04:00

Perfectly fine w being alone

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2010-12-22T11:01:00.003-04:00

Bestfriendsforever

Lai lai group photo!

Enjoying yummy fish&chipz

The dao face haahhahahaha just look @ us.

Met Jiaqi at amk's prawning place!!! What a coincidence~

Ivan & I forever wearing the same things!

All ready t pose for the camera!

PRAWNING @ AMK. This place got alot of cats. :(

Mines cafe!

Had a bff outing on Monday (Ivan's off day hehee). We went t mines cafe at boat quay & prawning at night. I'll let the pixxx do the talking yeah? Pretty much the usuals - Laughters all.

Anyw can't wait t see them again on Friday, timbre guyyyyyys hehee! This week has been quite an eventful week for me, considering that I've been going out everyday since Monday. Let's see..

Tuesday: Lil' class outing w Vanessa Jiaying Deyuan Bingxian in the morn. BBQ over at Brendan's condo at night.

Today: Met up w Waicheng Cheryl Cherie for lunch in the noon. Went over t Pinhui's condo t slack awhile & kpool afterwhich.

Ok bye people!

2010-12-19T14:29:00.002-04:00

It's exactly 2:30am in the morn and I can't sleeeeeep. I went nocturnal today by sleeping from 10am-6pm. I only woke up in between t like pee??? Hahaha honestly, I've no idea how I can visit the toilet so frequently when I don't drink while sleeping. So what I'm rly trying t say is I shouldn't stay at home because.. All I wld do is stay in my room & H.I.B.E.R.N.A.T.E.

I must sleep soon la, I've t wake up at 1030-ish tmrw t meet the bffs! Mines cafe + timbre/prawning yay me can't wait for it! Thxxxx 2 the father & mother, I've got tight curfews which has been affecting my life recently........... Sorry t the people whom I couldn't meet at night due t my curfews (u know who u are yep)

2010-12-19T10:20:00.005-04:00

Dinah Danial Tay ♥

Shopping is damn fun w her!

Coincidentally, Faiz was there too! Miss that NS dude alot.

Nahnah bought candy canes 4 her clique!

TSTMVC's beloved yong tao foo~

Yayyyy group photo!

CORRINAOWN! Hehehehee.

We drank gong cha but I think koi nicer.. :/

My nahnah lookin' pretty~

Went t cine for some frolick wooooz share share

Coincidentally (yet again) saw my dear bff Novell & her couzzzz.

They had best fries forever for dindin.

And lastly... FREE MONTHLY MAGZ FROM TOPSHOP MY FAV HAHAHA.

It's just a damn nice shopping day w Dinah! Met up w Jinna for awhile at cine at night and had a lil' catchup w her! GREAT LETS GO SHOPPING TGT SOMEDAY!!!!!! Hehehee.

2010-12-17T14:33:00.004-04:00

When strawberry shortcake meets fudge brownie,

Many many brownies

Just like how the dessert chefs do it

The brownie mixture lookin' yummeh

You're gna get baked!!

Boss of Bakerzin, Daniel Tay's recipe book

The big & fat strawberries that were super sweet. 11bux$ yup!

Venetia's naked cake

Lookin' preedy thx t chef Brice!

V calls these "FATS!" HAHAHAHA.

So chio chio chio chio chio!

2010-12-17T14:00:00.006-04:00

On a thursday night

What's a day wiv Venetia w/o photos??!?!

Our sushi & salmon spam hehee, I'm luvin' unagi.

The desserts are t-die-4.

Their signature crab is like so-so only lor!

I don't appreciate all these hahahahaha sorreh

V's healthy salad

MORE DESSERTS MUAHAHAHA.

So kushin-bo with the big brothers & the big sister & the sister-in-law turned out g8! But that bloody jap buffet made me 50bux$ poorer yeah. Anyw, love those funny inside jokes w Venetia in the toilet!!! And thxxxxx alot t Brice for the car rides. :)

2010-12-14T21:25:00.001-04:00

Whooopzz ytd was a rly good day t remember. Hmm but happy things are always short-termed yes? Anyw, am having DEL paper later and im hoping for a pass!

Persevere celesteyeojingmin! One more paper and I'm done studying for the year! ^_~ hehehe and I can't wait for the following days cos I've got soooo much plans. :D okay for now, I'm gna wash up and study~ nerdygal93 signing off hehe.

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2010-12-12T15:09:00.001-04:00

Samantha mentioned that I lack of blog updates recently so here I am! Tonight has been good t me, from the good food that I ate t the much-loves late-night conversations. Thank God for a good night like this. :) rly need t pass the paper tmrw or at least a 50%! Woohoo wish me luck~

(ihopeitsnotfalsehopesthistimeround)

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2010-12-07T12:19:00.005-04:00

I can tell, you can fit one more.

Focus on the iphones/itouches, blackberries, gatsby gels and lens covers hehe.

Lacey leggingssss.

Jud & Ivan's faces hoho epic

Jud's scorpion raaaah!

Old town coffee restaurant for some good dinner

Wow I could rly use some of these right now

RINGZ.

K this shall be the last post before my holiday starts! (Ihopesolahehe) Met up wiv the bffs on Monday at bukit timah for some wild time. Took tons and tons and tons of photos, luvin' them nong time. So I guess it's time for me t save up for a dslr yes?? Anyw, its good that we still meet up once a week despite our busy schedules. Almost all bbfs of mine are busy bees, all damn eventful hehehe.

GDLUCK T ALL FOR YA COMMON TESTS.

2010-12-03T12:27:00.002-04:00

(That huge Ion x'mas tree)

When you forget me
When you don’t remember my name
Not even a memory
Somewhere in the back of your brain
I won’t be offended
‘Cause I always knew that the day would come
When I’m not enough to make you stay

2010-12-01T10:53:00.002-04:00

Laughters @ Wheeeeelock.

Went t Vincent & Brice's work place for some rly good pasta.

Mine's beef bolognese wiv egg thxxx alot t Brice/Vincent for cooking!

After good food comes xcore mugging for DEL!

And not forgetting our usual camwhore breaks in between hehehe.

Gna go back to a little bit more of studying before I head for bed. Tak boleh tahan after sucha long & tiring dayyyy. I rly rly rly dread Friday.... Gna have eecad, gna have angsty teacher, gna get tons of scolding what the shit.. :( I just hope tmrw would be a good day.

I'm not in the correct state of mind nowadays. Like wrong wrong wrong state of mind.

2010-11-30T12:27:00.003-04:00

I need to obliviate all those feelings. For some moments today, just some, I rly hate the fact that you come speaking to me again. Because I know I will look back and fall again. And I know you will not catch me when I fall. Tonight, twitter seems to be overflowing with #decemberwish tweets. Wishes? 11:11? Are you fucking kidding me? They are just like FAITH, disappointing me as always. Stop being so stupid Celeste Yeo Jing Min. You come and go, why am I still hoping?

Looking back at what exactly happened a year ago, all I can say is that I've changed real big time. Hahaha my blog entry was a joke too... X'mas has always been good for the past few years. This year? Nah I don't put much hope in it.

Ya fuck it. Fuck school tmrw and all the rest. Itsnotgoodnightitsafuckingbadnight.

2010-11-29T12:07:00.002-04:00

Ahhh my lovely bffs, hope t see you guys again soon hehehe. I've been doing math all night thanks t the fugging quiz tmrw.. I hope I don't fail again this time! :( Why does derivatives of dy/dx even exisit???? I needa do some tumblrin' right now na na na.

I'm excited for school tmrw, idk why as well. And I bet you don't even know that I'm still waiting don't you? Haiii so much for the "faith" I've been keeping. Sheesh why is forgetting those 2 wks so difficult?

2010-11-27T11:37:00.003-04:00

I rly wna see shilei tmrw plz plz plz.. We could do all the stupid nonsense together like dye my hair?? I'm thinking reddish brown. And we could get my toms (that one on top!!!!!!) from town. Yes its my 3rd consecutive visit t town. I got so much krazeh stuffs to tell her that she might go "wtf o.o" when she hears abt it! I miss you couz! :( We need the htht!

Anyway, went to the OC spins to study wiv Cheryl and Samantha today. Wasn't much of a hardcore study session but I've got my DEL chapter 2 covered. Bumped into Malcolm, Serena and Fayme at cine. Ahhhh I just love the two mad people omg Waicheng rly need t recover soon and join us next time!

Ineedtoshutdownmylappyandsleepsoon, church tmrw!!!

2010-11-25T10:03:00.002-04:00

One of those awesome people who make me laugh in school heh heh love them to bits. Shanlwc holyxsmokes pridewar~ I think I'm laughing way too much, playing way too much that my studies are in the slums!

I've got engmec eltech del eecad eg2 cheesepie fugger why do we have to study.... :'(

2010-11-24T10:05:00.001-04:00

SUDDENLY LIKE A HAPPY ONLY

2010-11-22T10:21:00.004-04:00

my heart was breaking cause' you came and threw me a lie

Couz's kids always get the biggest cakes on their birthdays.

Elmo boy, luvin' elmo!

The bbq chalet was a lil' boring because I didn't know half of the people there.. Thank God that Sijia came heh heh. We ended up spending some good time alone together at the ecp beach, away from all the people. I was still in my deep train of thoughts as the sea breeze, the smell of tobacco and indie music accompanied me by. Why why why why why why why am I still thinking..?

I think school's sucha mofo peach but I hafta attend it tmrw boohoo.

2010-11-21T03:30:00.001-04:00

"She’ll be the first to admit that she’s not perfect. Her life’s a wreck, and the only thing holding her up is the hope that it’ll get better. She’s got some friends who would die for her, and she has friends that would kill her, given the chance. She has the mental stability of a psychiatric patient, and the constant drama that surrounds her doesn’t help. She’s lost all of the people she depended on, whether it be death, or betrayal. Despite everything that has happened to her, the reason she keeps hanging on is the hope that it will all get better." (venetia)

2010-11-20T11:16:00.004-04:00

Was a fool to think the grass was greener on the other side.

Double ring

Outfit 4 the day!

LJS for dinner, the usual 2pc cheeken & hersheys chocolate pie!

Emma Watson our favvv angmoh like always heh heh heh.

Errr my phone. I've got nothing to take photos of!

Fotoboof wiv Novell while waiting for the mahjong set-up~

After all that, I still have a lil hope lingering in me. I don't know what I'm thinking, but yeah. Today was kinda good for me? Because I met up wiv the couzzz after a nong nong time since CNY. Saya tidak faham saya hanya bisa berharap k bye bye :(

2010-11-16T12:22:00.004-04:00

True love is when you shed a tear and still want him. It’s when he ignores and you’ll still love him. It’s when he loves another but you’ll still smile and say, “I’m happy for you,” when all you really want to do is cry… and cry.

Not enough to fill that heart vacancy. I've been typing.. and typing. I deleted entries, deleted many of them actually. However my words got backspaced even though I know this is a space you'll never visit. I've got her tumblr opened in another window under my safari and I thought maybe that person is her. Yeah I'm stalking stalking stalking. As I continue reading, in my mind it kept me wondering, hmm so maybe she's your kind of girl. She's right, you've got a smile that could light up this whole town. One day if I stop tweeting and you realized, don't ask me why I'm so quiet on twitter. You muted me.

Taking a leap of faith? Trusting people? Following your heart? Sorry I've tried many times, but I don't believe in any of that anymore. I failed, I fell, I fell hard, and I'm giving up. Are those words complete bullshit or what? I won't take back these words until I get the right explanations I need. I don't give a fuck? No, I still do but I'll stop showing it. You made me lose hope in pinky promises you know? I'll forget these 15 days.

God, seriously why are you doing this to me?

2010-11-16T04:07:00.000-04:00

I love that "in the beginning" feeling where everything is perfect. You like them. They like you. Texting twenty four seven. Saying good morning, saying goodnight. Then you start using cute little pet names. Then it gets to the awkward stage where you're not sure exactly what you are. Then once you figure it out, it all goes down hill from there. All the excitement is gone. All the passion is wasted. Everything you once were has just faded to lies and bullshit. I hate love.

Story of my life right now.

2010-11-15T02:29:00.001-04:00

Your words fall out
Like a rain from a cloud
But they feel like stones
They cut me open
Do you know what it feels like
To feel so unwanted
You keep thinking you deserve the pain

2010-11-12T12:52:00.002-04:00

Side-tracking from EECAD for awhile.

This is cool shit!

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Don't you fret, should you get,
Another cancellation.
Give me a chance I'd make a,
Permanent reservation.
In your heart, in your heart, in your heart,
I don't care who was there before.

2010-11-10T13:03:00.001-04:00

Maybe I deserve all this. I give up. I will just take whatever that's given. Maybe I'm just not made for love. I fucking give up geddit?!?!?

2010-11-08T03:51:00.001-04:00

I'm afraid.

2010-11-06T13:11:00.002-03:00

School's pretty hectic I would say. But yet I'm not like revising or what ok contradicting....... Did stupid & dumb things when I could have done something more productive. Yes it's over already and I can already feel the start of something new!

Meeting up with Venetia, Vincent and their friend tomorrow for some good old luvin' SUSHI TEI @ VIVOCITY!!!! Tomorrow shall be a good day for me since today seriously sucked. I'm really looking forward to tomorrow, SUNDAY. Goodnight people X

2010-10-29T11:19:00.002-03:00

Froot loops for breakfast today :D

So.... The first week of school sucks although I made new friends. I really can't think of anything worse than having a class full of foreigners and you're the only singaporean. I'm not trying to discriminate any country, but life would be SO MUCH better if I'm in a class full of angmohs. :(

Okay so for the sports module, I chose the one that's the best out of all the available sports. VOLLEYBALL. With my fav AE boy, Rayner and Daniel! I'm still meeting up with the sem 1 t1b4 people during lunchtime, very good I likeeeee ♡

Alright folks, I need to R-E-V-I-S-E. Byebye!!!

2010-10-25T08:54:00.002-03:00

Six o'clock on a Friday night
Tell myself that it's alright
But it's not enough, it's not enough
Well I want you to know that
You're all that I wanted, now
Well I'm begging you, please
Don't go
I could say that I don't miss you but
My heart knows
That you're the one for me

- A song that Razi introduced to me saaaaad :'(

2010-10-22T13:15:00.003-03:00

All the topman part-time people (Ivan, hisham, syafiq missing)

Joyce my twin hehe love her!

2010-10-19T10:57:00.007-03:00

MARINA BAY SANDZ

Preedy preeeeedy scenery but fugly air..... It's so smelly!!! :(

2010-10-19T10:49:00.003-03:00

What am I suppose to do when...

the mother say i'm a failed pianist

the father say i'm a failed photographer

the piano teacher say i'm a failed student

They really think I'm born God :)

2010-10-16T15:16:00.002-03:00

waiting for happiness is like waiting for water in the desert

some people will not be there for you even though they promised you

sometimes nobody will be there when you need someone the most

only-child kids like me should be quite used to it yes?

only 17, there isn't a need to give a flying fuck about anything

stupid things just had to happen one after another

i need to emphasize, i'm only 17

maybe i guess at 17, that's when my life is most cocked up, most karma, most drama

what an eventful night huh a whirl of emotions gbailanjiao

2010-10-15T16:18:00.002-03:00

Is this the start of something new???? It could have been better but things got screwed up. Fuck it. Time flies tonight its already 3.30am time for bed. Work tmrw in the afternoon shift. Anticipating, anticipating. AND WAITING FOR SOMETHING THAT'S QUITE IMPOSSIBLE. Fuck it fuck it.

P.S. No more big hole in my hosiery again please superb embarrassing :'(

2010-10-15T13:57:00.001-03:00

[X] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own a credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[ ] You've done your own laundry
[ ] You can vote in an election
[ ] You can cook for yourself
[ ]You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR : 1

[X] You show up for school late a lot
[ ]You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday
[X] You like to take walks by yourself
[ ] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[ ] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 3

[X] You know how to do the dishes
[X] You can count to 10 in another language
[ ] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[ ] You study even when you don't have to
[X] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

[X] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[X] You can type pretty quick

TOTAL SO FAR: 9

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[X] You have been to the beach
[X] You use the internet every day
[X] You have travelled overseas for more than 5 times
[ ] You make your bed in the morning
[ ] You realised people of the opposite gender might just make better friends.

GRAND TOTAL: 12

I'm 17 but I act like a 12 yr old. WHAAAAAAT?!

2010-10-12T13:55:00.002-03:00

A man is dying of Cancer. His son asked him: “Dad, why do you keep telling people you are dying of AIDS?” Dad: “So when I’m dead, no one will dare touch your mom."

2010-10-12T13:38:00.003-03:00

my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if i'd ever heal again
just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change
i will break these chains that bind me
happiness will find me
leave the past behind me
today my life begins

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wo de xin hai hui tong zen me ban zen me ban haiiii

2010-10-12T12:21:00.003-03:00

I hope life would be good to me tomorrow, since it did me alot of harm today. GBAI!! Tomorrow there will be no dinahnahnah no ivanwheee in the afternoon idk if there's gna be xjeee and there will be no novellezy i hope there's at least kimistwitting or wrdhrni :'( Gna be working with Naz for the last time, he's leaving us already... Everyone leaves, sooner or later. ME? Am gna leave Topshop on 31 nov. No room for negotiation the momster gave the last warning.

Oh yeah I did something out of the blue today. But why...?

2010-10-10T15:12:00.000-03:00

I'll never find nobody who can love me like you do
I'll never find nobody to treat me the way you do
I'll never find nobody else babe
I'll never fall in love again

2010-10-10T14:16:00.003-03:00

My virgin trip to the night safari:

While waiting for the ghost mansion~

Their graveyard feels so realistic :s

Lai lai group photo!

Corpse's bride fml fml fml

He chased after us :'(

Aside from all the ghosts & monsters, something nice during the animal show~

All was good! Night safari/zoo's located at sucha ulu malu place but thank God for 927. Halloween's scare-O-Meter = 10/10 :'( Earlier on that day, I lost 55 cents in mahjong!!! AM I COOL OR WHAT HEHEHEHE. Night safari made me luvin' animals a lil bit more~

I don't want 25 october to come soon bcuz...

school is gna reopen
quitting topshop
start of the o levels (NOMB but still)

Afternoon shift tmrw yipeeeee. Same shift with the Dinahnahnah only (as far as I know). Hope we're gna have the same lunch break together... It's been a long time!

2010-10-07T14:34:00.001-03:00

Believe me, I won't stop at nothing to see you
So I've started running
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter
As long as I'm laughing with you
And I think that all that still matter is love ever after
After all we've been through
Cause I know there's no life after you

2010-10-06T14:03:00.002-03:00

"But at this moment of the final parting, my heart is heavy with sadness."

Been through it, I feel it.

2010-10-05T13:50:00.002-03:00

Things going through my mind right now: My useless 11:11 wishes, mahjong pong pong hu, halloween, the joy of being the same shift as dinahnahnah tomorrow hehehe, practising piano (i can't believe it), food.

I feel that I'm changing. Maybe that's what they call - growing up. I wanna make up right na na na. Wish we never broke up right na na na.

2010-10-05T10:34:00.001-03:00

Do you know what it feels like to be the last one to know the lock on the door has changed?

2010-10-05T08:09:00.004-03:00

Novell > Dinahnahnah > ME!

Joyce > Me > Dinahnahnah!

Nazri > Me > Dinahnahnah!!!!

A decent photo of me and fionabanana

Hersheys sundae! H-E-R-S-H-E-Y-S remind me of NPSU.

Me and err.... SUMMER? Hahahahaha oh my.

You're welcome. HAHAHA.

thumbz upz

Nice place to chill-out!

Failed blood :-(

Happie gurl wiv i-scream~

B&J's iPhone cover koolio!

And this thing here? It's mine ;-)

2010-10-02T15:19:00.002-03:00

If you read a recent front page story of the San Francisco Chronicle, you would have read about a female humpback whale who had become entangled in a spider web of crab traps and lines. She was weighted down by hundreds of pounds of traps that caused her to struggle to stay afloat. She also had hundreds of yards of line rope wrapped around her body, her tail, her torso, a line tugging in her mouth. A fisherman spotted her just east of the Farallon Islands (outside the Golden Gate) and radioed an environmental group for help. Within a few hours, the rescue team arrived and determined that she was so bad off, the only way to save her was to dive in and untangle her. They worked for hours with curved knives and eventually freed her. When she was free, the divers say she swam in what seemed like joyous circles. She then came back to each and every diver, one at a time, and nudged them, pushed them gently around as she was thanking them. Some said it was the most incredibly beautiful experience of their lives. The guy who cut the rope out of her mouth said her eyes were following him the whole time, and he will never be the same.

I need to do something like this before I die.

2010-10-02T14:43:00.002-03:00

With yuinping on thursday!!! Headache x sorethroat x upsetting results = half killed. Need things to go on smoothly (for once please) urgh.

2010-09-30T12:46:00.000-03:00

FORMSPRING

Q: Oh and do you listen to hardcore? You seem a little like you do.
A: Hardcore?? LOL metal you mean? Nope :)

Q: Hi I didn't know you had a Formspring account too! Okay to make this a question... What do you look for in a life partner?
A: Yes!!!! I had it for quite awhile already. Life partner.... Someone who can really trust me? That's the most important :)

Q: Hey are you attached?
A: Nope :)

2010-09-27T14:21:00.002-03:00

Forever going on like a broken record, I guess you'll never stop and you'll never be satisfied. One emotion for you: "Lol." I'm like... Is this all that's revolving around your life right now? Learn to be satisfied with certain things that you have, because just so you know some people (like me) don't even have it. K maybe for your case, I'd rather not have it. You are what some people call it - an insecured mess. For your own sake, stop grudging.

2010-09-26T14:18:00.001-03:00

Omg.......... :'(
Reblog if you love anyone this much.

Girl: Slow down, I'm scared.
Boy: No this is fun.
Girl: No its not. Please, its too scary.
Boy: Then tell me you love me.
Girl: Fine, I love you. Now slow down!
Boy: Now give me a hug.
Girl: *gives boy hug*
Boy: Can you take my helmet off and put it on yourself? It's bugging me.
Girl: Alright, now slow down.
Boy: I love you, babe.
Girl: I love you too. Just slow down, PLEASE!

(In the paper the next day)
A motorcycle had crashed into a building because of a brake failure. 2 people were on it, but only 1 had survived. The truth was that halfway down the road, the guy realized that his brakes broke, but he didn't want to let the girl know. Instead, he had her say she loved him and felt her hug 1 last time, then he had her wear his helmet so that she would live even though it meant that he would die.

2010-09-26T13:58:00.004-03:00

A trip down to sentosa after dinner

My dear classmates have a lil thing for black don't you think soooo.

Candylicious~

Too little for all of us :/

I want a cup like this too!!!

Venetia~

Lurve moi bro and sista~ ^^

Meeeeeee!

My topshop friends wiv lurve

Venetia's made-in-bkk nailzzzz!

Fruitful wednesday with the t1b4 people. Meeting them again next thursday for Hogs~ Hmmm maybe some tanning @ Sentosa first before lunchie? What say you!!!! Working morning shift tmrw, sleeping soon folks :-)

2010-09-21T11:24:00.000-03:00

FORMSPRING

Q: Hey what is the title of the lyrics train is coming train is coming song that you're listening? :)

A: LOL ITS NOT A SONG! It's a notification that would be played in certain train stations to tell you that the mrt is coming :) I think errr Dhoby Ghaut/outram park have!

(A reply to a very cute reader hahahaha!)

2010-09-20T13:56:00.004-03:00

Say hello to subway cookie which reminded me of my malu-of-the-day yesterday :(

Charlie St. Cloud seems nice! A must-catch movie~ Anyway what I'm trying to point out is, I wonder which kiasu person in my family took so many tissue papers!!!!

Yesterday night's supper excluding those zac efron stuffs. No life no life no life. Oh yeah am gonna have a mini class gathering after work on Wednesday! Haven't seen my t1b4 people together for awhile ever since our last sentosa trip. Anyway the sun has been letting us down recently boohoohoo.

My dreams are way much better than my reality. Like yesterday's though it was unfinished :'-) So what now............ Was having my round of duty at the main entrance today when I heard Miley's When I look at you. I think it's a soundtrack from the last song or something?? Felt so nostalgic all of a sudden even though I was doing the sucky greeting routine. Oh I wanna move to Topman. Lesser pairs of eyes staring at your actions = less stressful environment to work in. OMG ADDY/TEA MUAH SAVERS, PLZ TRANSFER AKU HAHAHA!!!!!!

Happy/active songs are just wrong to be played in the late hours of the night don't cha think so? K GIMME A NAIZE DREAM LATER THXXX GDNIGHT.

2010-09-16T13:49:00.002-03:00

Boy: Is your name Google??

Girl: NO!!!! WHY?!?!

Boy: Because you got everything that I'm searching for~

Awwh sweet muchie much. Cheezzie until hit rooftop!

Just came home after lepak session with the Topshop people. Knew a few more nice people who already left the shop. WARDAH TOLD ME I GOT THE GUZHENG FACE WTF OMG :-( After I started working, I can't feel which day is which and I have the tendency to ask people what day is it. Hmmm I think its really interesting how some customers think that I'm a malay at first, but are then surprised after I start speaking cheena to them! :-D Yesterday I was serving a pleasant customer and her daughter which rlly remind me of the past. Owell~

2010-09-16T01:14:00.006-03:00

"In the end, we only regret chances we didn't take, the relationships we were afraid to have, and the decisions we took too long to make."

Knn fucking hate myself after coming across this chunk of words. Time for work soon. I realize I make myself work alot at Topshop not only to earn alot alot alot alot of money, but more of forgetting certain things. Love work, except for the make-up and housekeeping part!!!! I don't even wipe my mirrors at home~~~

2010-09-14T11:05:00.001-03:00

This is the hardest story that I've ever told. No hope no love no glory happy endings gone forever more

2010-09-14T09:24:00.003-03:00

The difference between us when we were 7 and now, 17.

It’s amazing because when you’re a kid, you see the life you want and it never crosses your mind that it isn’t gonna turn out that way. Like how I wanted to be a teacher then a doctor when I was a kid? When I grew up, I realise I needed to take triple science and maybe get into college to be doctor. And the teacher part? I think I'd confuse my students even further.

Never knew it'll be that difficult.

2010-09-12T12:00:00.001-03:00

Is gonna suck just like june july and august. Haiiiiiii :-(

2010-09-12T11:09:00.002-03:00

Like we used to.

Does he watch your favourite movies?
Does he hold you when you cry?
Does he let you tell him all your favorite parts
When you've seen it a million times?
Does he sing to all your music while you dance to Purple Rain?
Does he do all these things like I used to?

Dad introduced me this. I. CAN'T. BELIEVE. IT. Hahaha anyway. 5 days in topshop was all well, time to update my blog about it! Wasn't THAT tough a job that dad described to me initially. Thanks for all helpful colleagues~ And my friends from all around that drop by to visit me :-)

Wakeup > Work > Sleep. This fucking cycle goes on man. I don't know what to say but I'll say it anyway.